First post

miss jennie suggested i started a blog. i always have so much to say, so i thought this would be the best way. thanks for the idea :). where to begin?

well, i was suppose to be going to LA with mel. you see, i was beat up by a guy i knew for only 4 hours. when mel saw my face she confronted the kids brother. he would not answer her...he instead started calling the brother. she grabbed his phone & smashed it. he decides to sue her over the broken phone. few days later she gets 2 letters in the mail. they were from 2 court shows that want us to appear on the show. we agree to go on judge joe brown. they pay for missing work, babysitter for me, the hotel, plane tickets, & food. we get all amped up & start planning. i get the days off with no problem. now a few weeks go by...they decide to have a meeting a week before we are to appear on the show. they call mel & tell her that i can't be on the show b/c of the criminal case i am involved in. the other kid can't have any witnesses either. A WEEK BEFORE?! WTF?! they couldn't figure this out from the beginning? they KNEW about the criminal case!! they saw the pics!! now mel can still go, but she will be going alone!! her dad said he would pay for half of my round trip. my mom can throw in 100 bucks. just need 150 more. i told work today & now they are saying the schedule is done for next week & since i told them last night that i wasn't going...they put me on to work. i am beyond pissed. i was sooo looking forward to this. they can't really talk about that night or show the pics. down with judge joe brown. mel is only still going b/c she knows she is not going to win & does not have the $300 to pay for the phone. understandable. just pisses me off that they will actually have her go to LA alone! do they know how serious this case is? fuck that shit. i was really looking forward to getting paid for missing work. haha. it was going to help me with christmas shopping!

on top of all this i got this boyf who doesn't call me for almost 2 days. i called him today saying i am not going to keep trying to call you. if you want to talk to me you can call me. i give up. he texts me back with how overwhelmed he is, stressed, & lost in his thoughts. well, this is why i knew seeing your ex would not help. she doesn't like me b/c he was talking to me right before they started going out. she has moved on & has a new boyf who she is "so in love with". why can't he be happy as well? why tell him if he is talking to me you two can't be friends? you don't have to like me. i honestly don't give a fuck. don't give him ultimatums. fuck that shit as well. i give up. i know you better than you think i do, boy. all i have to say. i honestly don't even wanna answer the call when he does decide he can talk. argh. why do i bother?!

well, this did feel good. thank you miss jennie!!