too many lie committed, too many games...

haha. all i have to say.

mel picked me up from work last night. she had a lot to talk about. well, it seems judge joe brown refused to take her case. he doesn't like the whole assault & battery part of the case. obvs. who would? anyway, i guess he said what he would have had to rule would make him look like the bad guy. we are assuming he would have had to rule in mike's favor seeing how mel destroyed his property...but he doesn't like the reason why the phone was broken. he would have looked like a bad guy going against us when i was beat up. BUT...they said judge judy would take the case. mel talked to them afterwards & they offered the same thing the other show offered. as long as everything works out we will be going the end of january. i hope it works out this time. i will not get my hopes up tho. i don't want to get all excited for nothing again! this is insanity. lol.

after this convo we smoked some hooka & talked girl talk. lol. we got into relationships & first loves. we trashed talk a little & talked sweet a little. mel left around midnight or so. around 130 i got a text from that boy. this is what it said "you could never imagine how sorry i am. you are right, i do suck at life. i hate my life. i hope you are ok. you deserve so much better." i know i deserver so much better. you betrayed me on my birthday. who does that? i know a guy who sucks at life? just a thought. i replied back with "you could have called me to tell me that you made other plans or heres an idea you could have told me the truth about choosing her friendship over me!" haha, i was so proud of myself. he replied & said "i didnt make other plans and i did not choose her over you. but i did let you down, for that i am sorry. i'm a wreck & i don't want you to waster your time. kill me please." kill me please? wtf? why would you say something like that? not cool. i would not want you dead. that pissed me off more than anything. my final reply was "i was betrayed on my birthday. do you know how that feels? i was fine being friends. why did you do that to me? you did make other plans. you went to the movies with her!" after he got this text he called me. he said he didn't go to the movies with her. i was like um, you have a comment on your page about going to her house at 1pm to see fred claus. ok, i live in a bubble & i didn't know this movie was out on dvd. lol. anyway...he told me after we hung up on fri his school called saying he had to be in the office on sat by a certain time. he went down there in the morning & forgot his phone at his mothers. i just don't get this...he was planning on going to his school sat morning, but he did not have plans with her & left his phone at his mothers. when did he talk to her about going to watch a movie? he obvs knew he was going to her house after the school if he did not have his phone. which means he talked to her on FRI about watching a movie...which mean he did have plans. meaning he could have called me to tell me he made other plans. i really don't understand that part. also, he tried telling me they watched the strangers. HAHAHAHA. another lie. she left him a comment on dec. 3rd about them watching the strangers. i confronted him on that one. he was like what? all the days have been blending in, i am so depressed. i was like ya, whatever. he was like oh, wait, we watched forgetting sarah marshall. i was like dude, i honestly don't give a fuck what you watched. you really are just pouring out lie after lie after lie. none of it made sense, so i gave up on trying to figure it out. lol. after all this he was like i felt like i was brushed aside after we decided to make plans because i really wanted to see twilight then you told me you were going with ryan & mel. i was like thats because we went to see it up here & had haileigh with us! you also have no money! man. haha, i know how to pick em, yes? he apologized for ruining my birthday. i was like actually, i had an AMAZING birthday. told him all about it & made sure to mention that kid i met at fireside whose number i got. hahaha. i rock. he started getting mopey & all that. which we know i can never handle. i am too upbeat. we hung up after 40 min or so. it bugs me because he's all about honesty...he lies & lies. i catch him all the time. dude, i am NOT the same girl i was at 14. i have been through a lot & no i am not an idiot. try again.

i am getting dark knight today on dvd from netflix :) i lucked out big time! i sent back my movie on fri & they received it yesterday. they sent out dark knight yesterday...now i get it right away! if they would have recieved my movie today i would have had to wait weeks or just buy it. i could not see this movie in the theater. all summer i had everyone begging me. i love heath ledger & i was honestly devastated when he died. i think he is just amazing. i am looking forward to seeing it tho. mel is coming over after work to watch it with me. i will try not to cry. lol!

should've known better, i should have known, should have known...

you know what i hate? when ppl preach about how they love honesty & respect the truth. then they lie. wtf is that? i mean we all lie in one way or another. don't preach about how honest you are when you in fact lie. man. pisses me off. this has to do with my last post. in seems as tho he did choose his friendship with the ex. now i wasn't told this by him. i just know because, well, i'm not an idiot. she left him a comment saying ps thank you :]. then he talks to me about being friends & yadda yadda yadda. fine, cool with me. no big deal. i left a comment saying lol. hahaha, i'm a bitch. then she leaves (this is so high school, i know) a comment with a graphic saying "those comments suck" with an arrow pointing down to mine & above. i deleted my comment, so now it's actually pointing to her comments. anyway, if he wants her friendship over our relationship then be a fucking man & say that. don't be a coward & cry to me (literally) about how you can't see your daughter, need a job, & want to hold off on going back to school because you wanna work first. just say I WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH HER. i think a relationship is the last thing he needs anyway. i honestly don't need all that baggage he has. i have enough of my own to leave at a guys doorstep. i so did not want to make this post about a guy. look i did. just angers me is all. dirt off your shoulder.

other than that...work is killing me. we started staying open til 10 right after halloween. everyone is already wiped out from the holiday shoppers. we were wiped out before thanksgiving!! it's wearing me out. it also doesn't help that they only schedule 3 ppl, yes 3, to close at night. we are a big store...one of the biggest in the area. we certainly need more than 3 ppl a night to close. sucks even more when the 1 person on register is in training. do they think when they make the schedule? this shit has been going on for weeks. its always me & the manager working the floor & being back up on register. customers at our store suck beyond belief. oh, i just dropped something...let me leave it there even tho i am watching this poor girl run around like a maniac cleaning the floor. FUCK YOU. the toy department (one of my main departments) is always destroyed. why? because mother of the year decides to let her children play with everything while she ignores them & shops on the other side of the store. ugh. disgusts me. i am so tired of having to repeat myself over the intercom..."attention dollar tree shoppers, there are several children running around the toy department UNSUPERVISED. we ask you to PLEASE keep your children with you at ALL times. we are NOT responsible for them and you WILL be asked to pay for any damages!" i do love making the announcement tho. haha, just so i can be a bitch. everyone gets a kick out of it. i can't wait til we go back to reg closing time. i am on the schedule mon-fri next week. this should be a interesting week. can't wait!

this is all for tonight fellow bloggers. one more day til i am 24! i have a date with mel tomorrow night at the fireside. fireside is a birthday tradition for me. haha. gee usually goes, but he has to work :( i miss my brother.

First post

miss jennie suggested i started a blog. i always have so much to say, so i thought this would be the best way. thanks for the idea :). where to begin?

well, i was suppose to be going to LA with mel. you see, i was beat up by a guy i knew for only 4 hours. when mel saw my face she confronted the kids brother. he would not answer her...he instead started calling the brother. she grabbed his phone & smashed it. he decides to sue her over the broken phone. few days later she gets 2 letters in the mail. they were from 2 court shows that want us to appear on the show. we agree to go on judge joe brown. they pay for missing work, babysitter for me, the hotel, plane tickets, & food. we get all amped up & start planning. i get the days off with no problem. now a few weeks go by...they decide to have a meeting a week before we are to appear on the show. they call mel & tell her that i can't be on the show b/c of the criminal case i am involved in. the other kid can't have any witnesses either. A WEEK BEFORE?! WTF?! they couldn't figure this out from the beginning? they KNEW about the criminal case!! they saw the pics!! now mel can still go, but she will be going alone!! her dad said he would pay for half of my round trip. my mom can throw in 100 bucks. just need 150 more. i told work today & now they are saying the schedule is done for next week & since i told them last night that i wasn't going...they put me on to work. i am beyond pissed. i was sooo looking forward to this. they can't really talk about that night or show the pics. down with judge joe brown. mel is only still going b/c she knows she is not going to win & does not have the $300 to pay for the phone. understandable. just pisses me off that they will actually have her go to LA alone! do they know how serious this case is? fuck that shit. i was really looking forward to getting paid for missing work. haha. it was going to help me with christmas shopping!

on top of all this i got this boyf who doesn't call me for almost 2 days. i called him today saying i am not going to keep trying to call you. if you want to talk to me you can call me. i give up. he texts me back with how overwhelmed he is, stressed, & lost in his thoughts. well, this is why i knew seeing your ex would not help. she doesn't like me b/c he was talking to me right before they started going out. she has moved on & has a new boyf who she is "so in love with". why can't he be happy as well? why tell him if he is talking to me you two can't be friends? you don't have to like me. i honestly don't give a fuck. don't give him ultimatums. fuck that shit as well. i give up. i know you better than you think i do, boy. all i have to say. i honestly don't even wanna answer the call when he does decide he can talk. argh. why do i bother?!

well, this did feel good. thank you miss jennie!!